Meditation series:21 notes for Meditators: Answers for Questions you never asked!
In every progressive meditators life there comes a time where he or she has to encounter with consciousness for the first time. Usually nothing can prepare you for the same. It is the encounter which leaves fear in belly for the most of meditators. Lets talk about it today.
For most of the meditators, turning point in their meditation arrives when they can watch their mind with awareness. Silent stand by observer for the first time gives glimpse of the present moment. But this is not awareness. This is not the consciousness usually teachers talk about. The reason is simple. As long as someone is there to experience present moment, someone is there to experience awareness, someone is there to feel consciousness – you haven’t experienced it yet.
First encounter with consciousness happens almost like an explosion, It is usually aha moment! In our day to day to life we can relate it to getting a sudden electric shock . Your first encounter lasts usually for 10-20 seconds
It doesn’t matter how many scriptures and books you have read, nothing can prepare you for this moment. During this moment you suddenly disappear. You will suddenly hit darkness and oblivion.. It is almost like you have dissolved into atmosphere. This experience can be so disruptive for the first time when you come out of it, you feel like hit by thunderbolt or shock. This is a moment where not an ounce of you remain but only consciousness is. Because you were not present during this explosion of awareness, to call it as an experience is also wrong. It is just an event of timelessness.
This is the moment usually meditation teacher refers to as dying to the moment. Let me give you an analogy but not close enough to express truth. If there is a dance then assume dancing, dancer has merged into dance and only dance remain. Similarly meditation, meditator has merged into consciousness and nothing remains.
The moment you come out of this event , your first experience usually is fear in belly. You feel like you have seen a ghost or at a loss of words. Most of the meditators who experience this go into shell for few hours. Fairly so it leaves you confused. You are trying to grasp un-graspable. You are also trying to recall which cannot exist in memory. First sign of such an event is usually fear like lingering feeling inside your belly. This fear usually lasts for hours and sometimes for a day. Most of meditators lose the plot here because they cannot grasp the event. Usually meditators describe this event as they felt like they have died for a minute or they say something like “I felt like I plunged into darkness for a moment”. Most of the meditators after this event actually resist meditation for some time. For next few hours you can expect them to walk like zombies and walk with sense of lost balance.
What can you do when this happens to you?
First sign of this event fear in belly , second sign is usually loss of words and loss of balance. I want you to know this is a gift. And rare one! Use this opportunity to go deep into meditation. If you keep yourself on the path then these encounters happen often and frequently. Over a period of time you will not only come into grip with the event but will also make tremendous progress in your inner journey. So do not fear this experience but celebrate. Offer gratitude for the showers! Keep quiet and do not share this much. More and more you talk about it, more and more you away from the effects of the event.
Note to help:
I recommend you two techniques next time you are blessed with this deep explosion of consciousness.
First is lie down on your face towards floor with your bare belly hugging or touching Mother Earth. Lie down eyes closed bringing all your attention to breathing. Mother earth will guide you from there on.
Second technique is simple. Sit comfortably and belly breath. Breathe deeply from your belly and slowly. Keep your hand on your belly. I encourage you to carry on this technique for few days after the event. Slowly you will find your way with answers.
Lots of my notes are concentrated and some of you might find it hard to digest. But this series is aimed at people who are on this path for some time. I am sure advanced meditators can relate to it. I have been getting flood of questions and I may not be able to answer everything due to lack of time. Please pardon me. I’ll try my best to reply and share wherever possible.
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